When encountering fear, what do You do? If you are like most of us, you resist it, you push against it and at the same you are scared to death that you might have spent any time with it at all and are therefore scared that you are going to create something from that place of fear. That only happens when you are resisting the fear and the other side of that is not the 'onboarding' of the fear; it is the 'watching' of the fear. Let the fear 'tell you' what it is and from where it comes. Feel the texture of it, the taste of it: let it tell you its origin story, not the other way around. When you do this, you will undoubtedly have other thoughts 'commenting' on the situation, trying to tell you what to do, how to think about the present moment where you are meeting this fear of yours. These are simply thoughts. They are part of the machinery that produced or triggered the fear in the first place.
Thought is the birthplace of fear. Fear is meant to save your life, period. Fear as a mechanism in human consciousness has outgrown itself and its original, primal function, which is to save your life when you are in mortal danger. What happens with this instinct to protect the organism physically is that we naturally take it into other realms and then want to protect ourselves from anything that is shocking, confronting, surprising or painful on every level and in every way and the thing is, you can't actually do that because reality is far more unpredictable, diverse and complex. We wind up then having blocks to experience in multiple vectors in our lives from friends, to business arrangements and deals to groups with whom we affiliate all in the unspoken name of protecting ourselves from pain, whatever the kind. There is no such thing as total security, but that is what we look for or try and create, but there are always holes in it because the Universe doesn't work like that. You cannot protect yourself completely. Change is the only constant, not complete security.
So, when fear comes in, watch it. Let it tell you about itself. Awareness is what you are. You are not your name....not really, No. You are not your affiliations in this life. You are Awareness. When you watch the fear without resistance, just watching it very closely without the movement of thought---which just means that you are paying such close attention to it that there is no separation in your mind between fear and the observation of it. When you do this with love, you will see it transform. This love comes about naturally when you want more than anything to understand yourself with a piercing desire that comes straight from the core of your being, from the depths of the God-Mind, in the realization that you are a Spiritual Being having a Human Experience and I'll be damned if I'm going to leave it without understanding what the hell this is. If you have that, then you have the wherewithal to pierce this human conundrum.
When you bring Light to what you are from moment to moment through your Choiceless Awareness, to whatever is on the screen of your mind--your awareness is 'Light' and when you meet fear with this light there is a transformation of What you are witnessing because you have met it with light, which means you have that quality of attention that is not requiring anything: no particular outcome, you are not pushing and pulling. You have that quality of love/awareness that wants to understand and therefore there is freedom and in that a full transformation of what you were previously calling fear.
There is no gatekeeper to this truth Except you. You are the security guard at the Door of your own Salvation and Choiceless Awareness is the key card that gets you through that door. Either you pick it up and utilize it or you don't. It's your ride. It's your journey. It's up to you completely.
