A lack of honesty blocks us from seeing the truth of ourselves. When we observe ourselves and want to change what we see then we cannot actually see What IS because our desire to change What IS prevents actual awareness and creates a conflict between what we are perceiving and what we would like to kbe perceiving. There is a wastage of energy here and it is this conflict that prevents True InSight that opens the door to love, peace....bliss. You do not have to seek these things. They are there when you SEE yourself without the filter of want or desire to change: when you see the truth of who you are from moment to moment as the energy moves within your consciousness: your thoughts, feelings, reactions, fears....all of it WITHOUT the desire to change what you witness. It is the ever present, living, moment. This also means watching your inner conflicts without 'trying' to overcome them, but instead being the ever present witness. The 'witness' is also the 'one' who is In conflict. When this is realized in the moment, not as a 'belief',but in actual fact, in your inner reality, then one realizes that there is nothing to do and all conflict vanishes. This Inner Truth cannot be owned, propagated or forecasted into the future or held onto in any way. It can only be perceived in the moment to moment reality of What Is. You can 'have' it one second and it be gone in the next and that is ok. Struggling will not make it so. Let it go. You can pick up attentiveness of yourself in any moment and at any time. Notice how life is when you are not attentive. When you realize that you are inattentive to the movements of the self in any moment, that then is attention. How long you hold it is not important. The Buddhists have a saying related to the activities of awareness that is applicable here, "...not too lose and not too tight..". You can only open the window and 'invite' the wind in by so doing, but you cannot force it much like you cannot force love. It will be there when the conditions are right. This is the beauty of these things and you can be as cunning as you like, 'practice' as much as you want, but it does not change one whit the mechanics of the energy of God, The All That Is, or whatever you want to call the nameless, omnipotent, omniscient, ever present spark of Light, Beauty and Truth: the Force Within All Things. This is outside the realm of thought, which is limited. Thought cannot think of it and any projection that thought creates is just that...a projection, but a projection, a facsimile, a picture on the wall is not the actual and to know that, the truth of that...is to be a step closer.
This perceptual conundrum is a trick of the mind, of thought. The Thinker is the Thought; the Perceiver is the Perceived. These words sound nice, but it is the direct realization of this truth in the observation of ourselves that actually means anything at all otherwise it means nothing at all. A way to visualize or conceive of it is to think of standing in front of a mirror. You standing there are the 'perceiver' and the reflection that you see is 'thought'. Although the reflection seems separate from you standing there it really isn't, but since the mirror reflecting you back to yourself is a physical piece of glass it would seem that it is separate in some sense and yet we all know the reflection isn't. You are perceiving yourself. Your thoughts are the same way, yet thought tries to convince you that 'you' are separate from 'thought'. You aren't. This is the lie. You are Thought and Thought is you. 'You' are put together by 'It'. The perceiver or the thinker is the thought and the realization of that in direct experience, is 'Action'. It clears the confusion and releases the energy of conflict and allows the energy and frequency of love. You don't have to go looking for it, when you remove the impediments to the energy of peace and love, they are there. Thought 'acting' upon itself is another part of the lie that we have bought into. Clarity is Insight, which is Action. Choice is born out of Confusion. When there is clarity there is Insight which is Action.
Our language system was created to instill and fortify a polar perception of reality which is why it is hard to speak about true unified reality or the concepts of it, which is what we are doing right now, with the language system that we have been given. This is also why orators who seek to elucidate, espouse and explain Unified Reality have to be ultimate word sleuths or their audience will simply not understand them. It is almost comical, although not quite, but nevertheless it is the reality in which we find ourselves.
Hopefully in between all words is the Spirit of Life; that is my aim to convey.