It seems that in order to continuously think one must be half ‘asleep’. That means to be aware of what one is thinking. We are mostly not aware of what we are thinking WHEN we are thinking it. Have you ever tried to be aware of your thoughts as they come into fruition; before the word; just watching the movement of energy before the label; before thought has categorized it and given it a face?  It is only afterwards that we realize WHAT we were thinking about: thought is the aftertracing of what has already taken place. You cannot think of something in the present moment. Thinking only happens in Response To the present moment. There is stimuli, sensation and then thought steps in. The beauty of all this is that you can investigate this all yourself. There is no taking anyone else’s word for it. Isn’t that beautiful? If you do take someone else’s word for it, then you are missing the point and have “lost the thread” as they say. You are the investigator, the investigated, the guru and the acolyte all in one. This is how it is all designed within the All That Is. You are The Guide and The Follower; The Teacher and The Student; The Seeker and The Source. It is All Within You. You are The Ailment and The Healer. Once this is Realized all Seeking stops. You are Home.

"Do not feel lonely, the entire universe is inside you. Stop acting so small. You are the Universe in ecstatic motion."

--Rumi

We are so easily fooled. We are looking ahead of or through the problem without actually seeing the problem itself because we are not recognizing it as the problem. How do we surmount this? 

We do this with thought. We ‘observe’ ourselves: observe our thoughts, our actions, our reactions, our movements physical and psychological, et al, but in doing so we separate who we think that ‘we are’ from that we are observing when they are actually the same machinery ‘dividing itself up’ to give the illusion of separation. This illusion of separation causes us great grief and sorrow and we are constantly trying to remedy our grief by putting salve on the wound caused by perceived separation which is an illusion. 

Why don’t we go to the heart of the matter? Because we have to perceive it first. That is the issue. We don’t see it; we don’t perceive it and therefore we don’t have the instant Insight that would end the separation and the psychological suffering. The funny thing about this Insight is that it is not something that you can ‘own’. You can see it in one instant and then lose it in the next. It cannot be ‘owned’, ‘collected’, ‘kept’. Thought cannot imprison it; cannot own it and yet it wants to. It wants to ‘save it up’ kind of thing. “I have the answer now”, it says. “I have seen it. I understand now.”, it says and tries to apply that dead perception to future living moments, but that does not work, because the Insight has to come to consciousness in real-time as thought is perceiving its own activity and the moment that thought tries to ‘store it up’, it is already dead because the living-ever-present ‘NOW’ has already moved on. That is why that all that thought can ‘grab’ is the past and the past is dead. 

This is why the analogy of the image maker is used. Thought makes images, all these images, but what we concern ourselves with is the ‘image maker’. Who is this image maker and can we be aware of the image maker; of the image as it’s being created? That is the question. The image maker is the question, the focus and the key, not the image that is being created. 

You cannot be aware of the image maker if you are resisting the images being created; then you are back to struggling with the machinery of thought itself rather than being aware of the movement of thought. It is a subtle difference, but it is the key to the whole machine. It is a living mystery that is revealed from moment to moment if one is free to look, to observe and in this observation there is the universe. It is closer than your breath. You are consciousness. 

The word is not the thing. Words are here as pointers, only. A symbology to signify something that cannot be defined, that can only be pointed to. It is like love. We cannot define it, we can only say what it is not and by that we are left with the mystery of its boundless existence which we can only skirt the periphery of through the action of negation (knowing what it is not).

It is the same with thought. Thought is limited and by being choicelessly aware of it as it is created moment by moment we can come to the border of the limitless, but we cannot define it or capture it or own it in any way or even conceive of it.  We can only sense its presence and revel in its energy: undefined, unowned and free. Anything else is to fool ourselves in the machinery of thought.

We want pleasure and we do not want pain and thus begins our struggle as these two are opposite sides of the same coin. 

In order to achieve our desired outcome--which is not to experience lasting and persistent pain, psychologically, we must have the same outlook in the pursuit of pleasure and this is where we get hooked. Why? Because the desire, the search, the effort to have constant pleasure or to 'favor' pleasure more than pain is what causes our psychological pain to last in the first place. We are here to experience life. We are going to encounter pain and pleasure. It is our perspective or our relationship to these that dictate whether or not we are locked in by them. When we give more credence or value to one over the other it incites the energy to stick to us more, hence the saying, "what you resist persists". Can we view any of it from a place of 'non-caring' while it is going on? Buddhism has a saying, "Not too lose, not too tight" when speaking about awareness of the phenomena that we experience day in and day out as spiritual beings in a physical dual-polar reality.

The 'trick' is to realize that the Thinker Is The Thought, but this must be seen by the consciousness that is experiencing whatever it is  involved within. Book knowledge will not work here. You can spout words from another with perfect recall and this will do nothing for your actual experience, but will sound impressive and beautiful. The real beauty here is that this is not enough. and no one can 'Own' Insight or Wisdom. One must experience this first hand in order to have Insight and that Insight is priceless and cannot be held. This cannot be stressed enough: Insight CANNOT BE HELD in Stasis. It is real and living and moving all the time. It is Life; It Is In Constant Motion. You can have real, true Insight in one moment and then not be able to find it in the next. This is part of Its Beauty. It cannot be bought and it cannot be owned, patented, claimed or any other word of the kind. 

When we experience pain we try to 'get away' from it or 'resolve' it as fast as we can, right? It is this antagonism that causes it to persist. If we were to examine pain in the moment with our consciousness, with our intention, with our awareness, without moving away from it---watching it and letting 'it' tell 'us' what it is all about without judgment and without pushing on it to go away or pulling on it to 'stay' (as in the case of guilt, to punish ourselves) we would find a state of equilibrium where we are just looking at 'what is'. What results from this is a state of awareness that doesn't 'care'. It is a state of learning without accumulation. Can we just learn by watching, but not try and change 'what' we are watching--which is also not to try and change whatever happens as a reaction to what we are seeing. This awareness is a constant state of attention without choice and without effort. If we are expending effort then we are resisting something. If we are resisting, then we are not realizing that the Thinker Is The Thought.

Awareness is a state of learning without choice. It is not an accumulation of what we see. 

We all want pleasure and want to avoid pain. It isn't to try and stop this, but rather to be aware of it as it is happening, which is to watch thought in action. You have the ability to watch the movement of thought; it is awareness and it is your birthright.  It is a constant movement. It is a fact. Can you just watch this without trying to change what you are watching? We all think and then we realize what we were thinking about after the fact, whether that is a split second or minutes later. What we are talking about here is to watch thought as it is arising, as it is moving, as it is forming. This is a different action altogether. It is to be aware without choice. It is to be aware of all of our reactions, our fears, our beliefs, our preferences, our predilections--all of it is made of thought. 

This brings us to question of "what is the 'I'?" Is the 'I' not made of a compendium of thoughts? Is the 'I' not put together by thought? To watch the 'I' is to watch the movement of thought. What happens when you watch without pulling or pushing? You see the truth of what is. The true brilliance of all of this is that this is something that you can do yourself. You do not have to take anyone's word for it. You can try it in any moment and what you find; what you see will be yours. No book is required. All the holy books are all pointing to this and once you glimpse this....you can put them all down, for you will have looked into the face of the Divine and realize that all is part of the mind of God.

Awareness is a Fire and we all have the Embers of The Fire that is the Mind of God: The I AM. Once you see that there is nothing in this world that can take that away from you. You Are. We Are. I AM.

Anything that we get adjusted to becomes habitual; it becomes something that we rely on, that we expect. That doesn't have anything to do with whether or not whatever that is, is good for us or not. That is a totally separate consideration. Take the recidivism of ex-cons, for example. Someone has been on the 'inside' for however many years. They have lived in a prison, then they get out, reclaim their freedom and depending, there can be a very strong impulse for the person to return to what they have known for so many years--prison, despite the fact that in prison they were denied their human rights on all levels that the prison authority could control and limit. Strange, right? Not really. This tendency is intertwined with human nature. We want a dependable reality that we can rely on. We want something that we can forecast from which has rules and limitations that we know and understand.

On Earth, our Controllers have used this aspect of human nature against us. They have counted on us to behave in this way and it has been successful for thousands of years; however, we are living in a prison. Within that prison we have the illusion of mobility and choice and we have that to a certain extent, but there is a ceiling and walls and floors to it all. Our Controllers have been controlling,  manipulating and guiding our perceptions and thereby our behavior from the shadows. They control and own certain members of the elite all over the world. This is how they do it. It is a Top Down control system on our planet. They have implemented this 'top down' control system through every avenue and in every channel on our planet from education, to scientific, to religious, to economic, to industrial venues through and through. They have been at it for a very long time and actually brought this method of control here from other star systems. They are master geneticists and had a hand in creating us once upon a time in order to mine gold--rich on our planet--for the atmosphere on theirs. They have engineered us to serve them and have tried for a long time to keep us in this prison. They have done that through electromagnetic manipulation, DNA re-tooling and conceptual/perceptual/belief system guidance and limitation. The issue for them is that they used the Divine Spark in our creation because the first few hominids that they created were too dumbded down to perform the gold mining very well. They did this because their population that they tasked with the gold mining rebelled. It was hard work and so they created a 'worker' that would do their bidding and that became us. Like I was saying, they used the Divine Spark, this primordial energy, a part of themselves, to create us and that energy has its own intelligence and it cannot be kept in a box forever. They know this and that is why they have fervently been scrambling to keep us in this box of controlled illusion. They created us using the Spark from themselves and have tried to keep us limited in order to serve their needs and their desires. We were meant to be the workers and not to usurp their control over us and it is this that they desperately wish to keep in place. We serve their needs through ways that we do not yet understand. They feed off of our negative/lower energies: the energy of war and violence; the energy of hopelessness and dissempowerment; the energy of fear; the energy of sexual addiction without love. These are some to name a few. Basically, they scoop up the lower vibrational energies--'loosh' and use them somehow to propel themselves in some way. They engineer events to illicit these kinds of energies and they do this through world events, but also through every avenue of our society from educational (sex ed and trans ideology: disconnecting the individual from their personal power and connection to the Divine by way of their sexual energies), medical (through prescribing mind/emotion altering drugs that keeps us in a lower vibratory state and keep us from our innate Divine Power and Energy through hobbling the mind/emotion evolutionary process as well as to keep us moderately sick so that we do not 'Rise'), financial (through keeping us tied to 'usuary'/debt systems in an effort to keep us poor, i.e. unable to have the affluency to afford to look into other avenues of healing, self-discovery and personal evolution) as well as religious (by programming us to believe in original sin and a vengeful God. They were painting pictures of themselves there. They are not Prime Creator, First Cause and they know that, but we did not. They created religion and the worship of 'God' to control the perceptions and the behaviors of humans because it was very effective and very easy to do. We are easily influenced). Like I said, they have been at this for 1000s of years and have used it successfully on other star systems where they are also the Controllers. 

We are at a juncture where there is a window for us to get out of the box once again, should we choose to take advantage of it. There are many forces here to assist us in this process, but because this is a freewill zone, we have to volitionally choose it. The forces that are here to assist us cannot intervene (because we live in a freewill zone) unless the survival of our species hangs in the balance. Whether or not they get involved physically depends upon whether or not we let the disintegration of the prison walls to continue. If we miss it because we don't realize it or don't see the possibility then the way out is lost again for another 1000 years or so. We have to wake up to the point of making the choice to get out so that the walls to this prison planet come down and we actually see that the reality that we have been living within is not real, but illusory. All over the world you can see how systems are crumbling and disintegrating. This is as it should be and should not be stopped, but helped. We realize that there are changes afoot and we have been praying/intending/asking for a gentle, peaceful transition into whatever the next phase of our reality will be, but in many ways this is not the intention or prayer that we should be eliciting, but rather to have help in navigating, rebuilding and restructuring the next phase of our reality and our growth. 

The ball is in our court. We need to be wise, psychic, and smart enough to choose the right course of action in this moment. There is no wrong answer, but why put off for another 1.000 years what we as a species can enact today?